Happy New Year!

Happy New Year! Yes, I know it’s September, but Happy New Year! Happy 5768! It’s the Jewish New Year, and we’re celebrating the beginning of the year 5768. But it’s 2007! How can it be 5768? Answer—we live in two worlds.

To herald the beginning of the new year, the Jews of the Bible would blow a trumpet. Not a trumpet like we think of, a shiny metal hand-crafted instrument, but the shofar, the ram’s horn. A trumpet is a meticulously crafted, regimented, consistent instrument, but the shofar is wild—it comes from a live animal. Every shofar is different. The shofar produces a different sound, a wild sound. Continue reading “Happy New Year!”

The Gate of Dan

Brian reminded me of this picture, taken in 2006. It was in 1996, however, ten years before, that I first laid eyes on this very special place, the gate of Laish, or Dan, in the far north of Israel, near the Lebanese border. Laish was an ancient Canaanite city more than 4,000 years ago, and Abraham, who was journeying south into the land where God had called him, took his first steps into that land as he walked through the gate I stand before.

Laish was renamed Dan when it was conquered and settled by that Hebrew tribe five hundred years after Abraham lived, after Joshua led Israel into the promised land. From the book of Judges 18:27-29–” they proceeded to Laish, a people tranquil and unsuspecting, and they put them to the sword and burned down the town. There was none to come to the rescue, for it was distant from Sidon… They rebuilt the town and settled there, and they named the town Dan, after their ancestor Dan who was Israel’s son. Originally, however, the name of the town was Laish .” The city flourished under the control of the Hebrew people, but in the two millenia since they were exiled from their land, it had slowly eroded and become a forgotten ruin. Continue reading “The Gate of Dan”

Fully Alive, On Purpose

There is an old Jewish prayer that comes from the Talmud that I have grown to love. It’s a prayer that is reserved for very special days, especially a day one has been looking forward to for a long time. It goes like this:

Blessed art Thou, O Lord,
King of the Universe,
Who has kept us in life
Preserved us from death,
And has allowed us to reach this moment.

What a beautiful thought, what a beautiful prayer. But I think it’s one that should be prayed much more frequently, even every day. For life is a gift, a wonderful gift, that should never be taken for granted. This moment, this very moment, will soon be past and will never return. What you do with this moment matters.

I love this prayer too, from the Amplified Bible: And this I pray: that your love may abound yet more and more and extend to its fullest development in knowledge and all keen insight, so that you may surely learn to sense what is vital, and approve and prize what is excellent and of real value, recognizing the highest and the best, and distinguishing the moral differences. Philippians 1:9-10

Being fully alive means living each moment to its fullest, valuing what has value, and ignoring what doesn’t. I’ve recently discovered a new author I love, Wendell Berry. I read this just tonight in Hannah Coulter. These words leapt from the page.

You think winter will never end, and then, when you don’t expect it, when you have almost forgotten it, warmth comes and a different light. Under the bare trees the wildflowers bloom so thick you can’t walk without stepping on them. The pastures turn green and the leaves come.

You look around presently, and it is summer. It has been dry for a while, maybe, and now it has rained. The world is so full and abundant it is like a pregnant woman carrying a child in one arm and leading another by the hand. Every puddle in the lane is ringed with sipping butterflies that fly up in a flutter when you walk past in the late morning on your way to get the mail.

And then it is fall and the cornfields are ripe and the calves are fat and shiny and the wooded valley sides are beautiful with color. The sun is bright, the air clear, and the shadows dark. There is the feeling of completion and storing up and getting ready.

You have consented to time and it is winter. The country seems bigger, for you can see through the bare trees. There are times when the woods is absolutely still and quiet. The house holds warmth. A wet snow comes in the night and covers the ground and clings to the trees, making the whole world white. For a while in the morning the world is perfect and beautiful. You think you will never forget.

You think you will never forget any of this, you will remember it always just the way it was. But you can’t remember it the way it was. To know it, you have to be living in the presence of it right as it is happening. It can return only by surprise. Speaking of these things tells you that there are no words for them that are equal to them or that can restore them to your mind.

And so you have a life that you are living only now, now and now and now, gone before you can speak of it, and you must be thankful for living day by day, moment by moment, in this presence.

MORE MOUNTAIN ADVENTURES FROM JINKS AND LUCY

THREE DAYS BACKCOUNTRY CAMPING IN GLACIER GORGE, ROCKY MOUNTAIN NATIONAL PARK

We’ve been coming to RMNP (Planet RoMoNaPa as Jinks calls it) every year for almost a decade, and lately more than once a year. We’re avid summer hikers, love snowshoeing in the spring, and the fall colors. So backcountry camping seemed like the logical next step. Actually, we’re so in love with Glacier Gorge and wanted to spend more time there, especially beyond Black Lake, without having to do the long hike in multiple times. So on March 1, the first day the Backcountry Office begins to take reservations for the season, we were on it.

Having secured the coveted site, then commenced hours and hours of research and acquiring the necessary gear. We finally got it together, stuffed the truck full, and headed west. We first had eight great days in a condo with our entire family. It was a wonderful week, full of lots of memorable hikes. And then they went home, and we entered Phase Two.

Day 1 : Packing up, moving out of the condo, and hiking in to our campsite. I had never carried such a heavy pack, and was a little nervous about doing it. It wasn’t as hard as I had thought, and Jinks would say it was because it wasn’t that heavy! He had the real load. But still, mine was much more than I was accustomed to, and I’m anxious to weigh it when we get home, as it’s still all packed. (EDIT: approximately 32 pounds, not shabby)

But after arriving, I realized it did take a lot out of me, because there was nothing left! I was exhausted. We set up camp, and rested and hung out.

Day 2 : It’s a bummer to find out your air mattress has a hole in it. The ground was hard, and I was cold all night. I slept in sweats, a hiking shirt, and socks. About 4 am I put on my hooded fleece and a second pair of socks. That helped. It’s also a bummer to realize you’ve forgot the snack food. A bag of Clif Bars, cookies, cheese and crackers, and trail mix was left in the truck. We had carefully planned meals, but nothing in between. That can be tough when you’re doing things that take a lot of energy. After a breakfast of oatmeal and coffee, we headed up the trail to Shelf and Solitude Lakes. I love climbing up there—it’s a little tiring, it’s steep, but not scary, because it’s not rocks but tree roots you’re climbing over. We got up in an hour, and spent some time admiring all the views. We climbed up the shoulder that juts out from Arrowhead. I swear I could see almost the whole world!

Then the two guys headed off to Thatchtop. I watched them a while—they got smaller and smaller until they disappeared into nothingness. They were gone for a couple of hours and I enjoyed just being there, sitting at the edge of Solitude. Yes, it was a lake, but I was also "at the edge of solitude," a place that’s often hard to find in our crazy world.

I finally begin to hear a familiar sound, the sound of Jink’s trekking pole hitting rocks, but they still were not visible to me. I was poring over the landscape, and finally saw a speck of red move down the mountain, Pip’s hat. They had summitted the big pile of rocks and were returning. Do sounds really carry so much farther in the mountains, or are they just drowned out by all the cacophony of our world? How far do you have to go to experience quiet?

We fixed a spartan lunch—ramen noodles, and watched the afternoon clouds begin to build. We got poured on going down the mountain, but I didn’t mind, because we have raingear, and stayed warm. When we reached the bottom of the mountain, it suddenly cleared off, and we parked on a big rock in the middle of Shelf Creek, spread out our gear to dry, and Jinks fixed coffee. He loved his Jetboil stove! It’s funny how enjoyable just hanging out on a rock can be in the mountains.

Back on the trail, it was fun to look and see where we’d been. At the very top of the trees is the "corridor" we’d entered the huge rock shelf that contains Shelf Lake and 200 feet higher, Solitude—how different it looked from this perspective.

Back at camp about 4 pm, we’ve got work to do. Pumping water, packing and repacking gear, trying to keep camp tidy, and soon it was time for supper. Those Mountain Home dehydrated meals are quite good—the best we had was the chicken breast with mashed potatoes, and that kind of made up for the lean day, with an orange for dessert. After supper, an evening of rummy, where I put them all to shame!

Day 3 : I stayed warm last night! Jinks and I traded mattresses. He’s my hero. It rained in the night. It always sounds like its raining harder than it is, because of the drops hitting the tent right over your head. More water pumping, more oatmeal and coffee—hot chocolate for Pip. Our "kitchen" was located down the steps, a short trail to the right, and around a fallen tree, to a big flat rock where Jinks was head chef, running his stove. We had a bear vault, and hung a bag in the tree for what wouldn’t fit in there and trash. It was Pip’s job to lower and raise the bag each meal. After breakfast, rifling through the stash, we found a bag of trail mix, which was a cause for rejoicing, and we took both ramen noodles and Indian food with us that day. We ate like kings, or maybe hobbits—ramen noodles for second breakfast at 11 am at Frozen Lake. We were socked in by clouds and I felt like we were on the moon. We could hear climbers on Spearhead, shouting "Belay on!" but never saw them. Frozen has such a remote feel.

We walked down to the outlet and began our descent down there, trying to avoid the worst of the wet, slick rock slabs. Once down in the gorge, we decided to skip Green Lake, as we’d been there before, and head straight for Blue. And that’s what we did, headed straight for Blue. There’s probably a better way. We ended up in a lot of krummholz (tangled bushes, actually small trees) that had streams flowing through it. I stepped down once and my boot just kept going, into water just below my knee. My boot and sock were soaked. Rats.

We got up to Blue Lake, which in my opinion is under-rated. Blue sits on a HUGE flat shelf that you wouldn’t even know is there if you didn’t go see if for yourself. Walk to the back of it, and you get a beautiful view of Mills and that whole valley. The sky was black down there, and it looked like it was raining hard. Jinks wanted to do lunch there, but I talked him out of it, we’d just had "second breakfast", and those clouds were ominous. So we went down toward the trail to Black Lake, and when it was in sight, sat down and had palak paneer and chicken tikka masala with rice. I bet there weren’t too many folks having that kind of meal in the mountains that day! It was just vacuum packed stuff I bought at the little Indian grocery store here at home and put in the Jetboil until it was warm. The instant rice we made right in the ziplock bag. It rained a little and we climbed in a hole under some bush. The rightful inhabitant is probably a bear, but he didn’t come home while we were there!

We hiked home in a downpour, an hour or so. I don’t mind hiking in rain a bit, but it’s nice to have some place to dry off and warm up when you’re done. We’d hung some wet things up in the tent when we left that morning, hoping they’d get dry, and instead they turned the tent into a sauna, and now everything was wet. Another lesson learned. I changed into damp dry clothes, got in my damp sleeping bag, and shivered. It poured rain for the next two hours, and I couldn’t get warm. I was beginning to think it would never stop. How were we going to fix dinner in a downpour? And would I ever warm up?

And then I had a brilliant idea. There was no reason we couldn’t just hike out of there, four short miles, get a motel room, a hot meal, and dry clothes, and then run back up in the morning and break down camp and carry it all out. At least I thought it was a brilliant idea. Jinks threw back his head and laughed. Jinks Jr. looked at me in horror and said, "Mom, no!!!" Fortunately for all of us, at that moment it stopped raining and we had two hours to cook a warm supper and dry out a bit. We stood by the stream after dinner and watched the clouds moving in and out over the peaks—it was magical. At 8, the rain started up again, and we hopped back in the tents and read….my headlamp went out, we were out of batteries, and so Jinks and I read our individual books with the same headlamp. It required some coordination, but that’s what camping is all about—teamwork, huh? I was warm, I was happy, there was no place I’d rather be. I was so glad wiser heads had prevailed and we got to experience one more night in that idyllic place.

Day 4 : It rained hard most of the night. But I awoke at 5:00 to quiet, except for the large drops falling off the tree onto Pip’s tent next to us. I got up, and saw the moon through the clouds and the tall pines. Another enchanted moment, the forest so very still after the rain. I crawled back in my sleeping bag after a bit, and slept another couple of hours.

We took our time with breakfast—more oatmeal and coffee and hot chocolate. No one really wanted to leave. But then we began to pack up, and soon headed down the trail.

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I’m not sure we would have gone for it if we hadn’t gotten that particular site. But having now done it, there were surprises. Camping was fun on its own, but fun in a different sort of way. It was WORK, something you don’t always associate with vacation. It sure wasn’t a day at the spa or a cushy resort. But it was immensely satisfying and soul-enriching.

It’s important to me to choose the right book for any kind of trip. It sets the mood. I was reading Hannah Coulter by Wendell Berry, and loving it. I just found Wendell Berry’s fiction, and it is a treasure. I’m sure I’ll read everything he’s written. This story takes place in a simpler time, in a simpler place, rural Kentucky in the first half of the 20 th century. But I spent a good deal of time also reading Jinks’ book, Better Off: Flipping the Switch on Technology by Eric Brende. This M.I.T. graduate made the decision to leave technology behind for eighteen months, to live without electricity, motors, e-mail, and telephones. He suggests our labor-saving devices are really sucking the life out of us. It was a thought provoking read.

I got to experience three days without much technology at all—pumping my water through a filter from a stream, no climate-controlled environment, no television, no internet, no outside communication. Everything we did seemed to be more work than usual, but somehow I had more time than ever to dream, to think, to just be. Did I get bored? NEVER! I felt more fully alive than ever. I loved every minute, as long as I was LIVING in the minute. (Worrying about being cold all night was a short-term bummer, but it wasn’t in the present, just worry about the future.)

Two days after our trip, I still feel very much affected by what I experienced. We’ve always loved the mountains, but backcountry camping added a whole new dimension to the experience. We’ll be back.

THE EXCITING MOUNTAIN ADVENTURES OF MR JINKS AND MISS LUCY

13 miles, 12 hours, at 13,000 feet

We’re going to get straight to the point here. Miss Lucy did not summit Longs Peak. Anybody got a problem with that? Good—I didn’t think so! Because there’s a lot more to mountains than summits. Miss Lucy never wanted to join the Olympic Mountaineering Team anyhow. This is the story of how Miss Lucy turned a so-sad moment into a smiley face day.

It all started at 2 am—that’s what time our group of twelve hit the trail. Five Jinks’s and seven friends—news has gotten around about Jinks being a professional Longs Peak guide. He collected a dollar each from the non-Jinks’s, and got a $2 tip. A portion of that had to be paid to Jinks Jr. for assistant guiding services. For fourteen hours of hard work, Jinks earned himself a Starbucks.

The trip up was uneventful—it would have been more fun if Miss Lucy could have visited more with her friends, but the guide was pushing us hard and she had no air to spare. The other four females on the hike were Miss Lucy’s darling daughter-in-law Ashlie, and the wives of three of the guys. Ashlie planned to summit, but the other gals were nonchalant and noncommittal—they were basically just along for the ride. It was dark and overcast, and there weren’t as many hikers on the trail as might be expected on a Saturday in late July, but it had rained hard in the evening and the forecast was for more.

Thankfully, the sky began to clear after we finished our Boulderfield breakfast and began the push up to the Keyhole. Those nonchalant females turned into pretty strong hikers, and Miss Lucy was a little embarrassed to see that all the rest had already arrived and she was bringing up the rear. (In her defense, they were all younger too.) Those last fifteen feet up are tough, and Miss Lucy made a particularly embarrassing maneuver as she heaved herself up on the rock. She got stuck on her belly with her feet kicking the air behind her, and although he denies it, she swears she saw Jinks roll his eyes.

The arrival at the Keyhole is abrupt and startling for all. Miss Lucy took a quick look, got all woozy and plopped herself down in the center of the Keyhole like a quivering mass of jelly.

Everybody was ready to go up! Nobody was turning around like they had said. The mountain had seduced them. Lucy hated that they were all waiting on her. She knew it would only get worse from there, and besides, she was currently paralyzed with fear. She impulsively told them to go on. Jinks said, "You’re sure?" and looked at her sadly. He was the final one to step through the crack to the other side of the world. He gave one last backward glance, and then he too disappeared—it all happened so fast.

And so Miss Lucy continued to sit stiffly. There was a steady stream of climbers coming through. Most were friendly. One guy asked "Are you okay?" Miss Lucy was a little indignant, and wanted to reply, "What about me makes you think I’m not okay?" But she just said with forced enthusiasm, "Oh yeah, I’m great! Having the time of my life!"

And then Amazon Climbing Chick stepped into the box with her long legs and short shorts, flipping her blonde ponytail. She said, "Hey, are you going up or not? Either get going or get out of the way!" Miss Lucy just gave her the evil eye. She wasn’t blocking her way, and the chick didn’t even hesitate as she slipped on through the crack.

It remained to be seen what would become of Miss Lucy. It appeared that she may have found her final resting place. She was trying very hard not to move at all. Perhaps she would stay there forever, and would eventually become calcified and petrified, a new rock formation. In generations to come, future climbers of Long Peak would enter the Keyhole, pause a moment, lower their eyes respectfully, and mutter, "Remember Jinks’ wife."

But a simple twist of fate was about to change everything. One of the guys in the group that went on with Jinks had clipped a walkie-talkie on her pack as he left, saying she could keep track of the group. Just then, the thing began to squawk. Miss Lucy groped awkwardly for her pack to silence it, and her camera fell into a deep hole in the rocks.

She could see it, several feet down, but there was no way her arm would fit or reach it. The hole seemed to open up on a level down below, and Miss Lucy forced herself to look behind. Yes, there was another level, and in order to reach the camera, she would have to clamber down there. Or slither. Whatever worked.

She began to move, and as has happened before, the terror seemed to dissipate as she did. She found herself on a very stable slab of rock, hemmed in by a wall. She relaxed, retrieved the camera easily, and began to look around. She soon saw and identified the LEDGES of Longs Peak, with PEOPLE on them. And some of them, far away, were her FRIENDS! Beyond that, was the legendary TROUGH! Tiny little specks were moving up—they too were PEOPLE! She was enthralled. Soon she began to examine more closely the area of Glacier Gorge and identified all the lakes, taking lots of pictures. It was GREAT! Miss Lucy started once again to enjoy herself.

It was cold up there, and especially so, not moving. Miss Lucy realized she didn’t want to wait for her friends—it didn’t look like anyone was coming back soon. And then she thought to herself, "Lucy, old girl, it’s up to you. If you want to have a fun day, go have a fun day!" She briefly thought of perhaps following the group through the crack, now that she could see the other side, and then thought better. But she was immensely proud of herself for even thinking about it! She gathered up her stuff, and slid down the front of the Keyhole. It was much easier getting down than up. She took it slow, and instead of feeling driven, she simply enjoyed it. The sun was shining and it looked to be a perfect day. She climbed down a ways, and then decided to go up on the ridge on the right.

She soon found herself looking over the top of the ridge right into Chasm Lake. It was breathtaking. She got a call from the folks on the top—nine out of eleven of them had made it to the summit—the other two had waited at the bottom of the Homestretch. She was so proud of her daughter-in-law Ashlie, but was most proud of her friend Kathy, who had spent the summer before having chemo and radiation following a double mastectomy. Way to go, girlfriend!

Lucy climbed amongst the boulders on the ridge, seeing and photographing several spectacular views. She descended slowly and gradually through the lower parts of Mount Lady Washington and rejoined the Longs Peak trail far down from the Boulderfield. From there she hiked leisurely and with great pleasure, stopping to journal, to take pictures, to visit with other hikers, and just to breathe the clean mountain air and enjoy God’s creation. It was a SPECTACULAR day.

When she reached the ranger’s station, Miss Lucy took her boots off and laid down on a bench, enjoying the rest and warm sunshine. It was a very pleasant two hours before the others came dragging in. Mr. Jinks went straight to her and planted a big kiss on her lips. She said, "Humph! You’re just feeling guilty because you went off and left me, but don’t feel bad, I had a LOVELY day!" He said, "Yes, I felt bad the whole day, but there was nothing else to do. But that mountain is INSANE, and I was insane to ever think you’d enjoy doing it! I’m crazy to want to do it myself! You made the right decision."

He said then that he was through with Longs Peak, but the mountain was already working its dark magic. At supper he was saying "Eight isn’t a good number to end on….I probably should do it another two years to make ten, and then maybe every five just to keep it fresh…."

The rest of the group had similar episodes of cognitive dissonance. They loved it, they hated it, it was the most wonderful thing they’d ever done that they’d never do again. Yes, Longs Peak casts an astonishingly powerful spell.

But all the mountains have some degree of the same power. I’m sitting here typing this in the early morning, looking at the mountains, longing to be there. (Get out of bed, Jinks!) Tomorrow we start our backcountry camping trip in Glacier Gorge. I’m not sure what we’ll do today, but I do know there’s never a bad day in the mountains.

GOD IS NOT A JIGSAW PUZZLE

Putting together a jigsaw puzzle can be a relaxing and entertaining way to spend a cold winter evening, even better when there is a roaring fire to warm you. There is a great sense of satisfaction created when, after much concentrated study of the many pieces laid out in front of you, you finally find THE ONE that fits, and snap it into place. There’s a brief moment of triumph, and then it’s on to find the next one.

Some pieces are harder to find than others—sometimes you become convinced a piece is lost—it’s just not there. In frustration you move on to another area, and then usually find the difficult piece when you’re not even looking.

Some aspects of the Kingdom of God are like a jigsaw puzzle, and oh what a joy as those pieces begin to come together, to form something real and recognizable, as we begin our journey and lifelong devotion to understanding the mysteries of God and truth. But be forewarned, God will not be reduced to a jigsaw puzzle, and there are many pieces, many aspects that will not snap neatly together.

Systematic theology. It sounds so appealing. To have a religion, a belief system that can be dissected, diagrammed, and memorized, a puzzle that can be solved, pieces that snap smartly into place. But the Lord of all the earth will not be reduced to anyone’s system. Just when we think we have Him all figured out, He shows us we don’t! He is a person, and it’s a RELATIONSHIP, not a system—a mystery, not a jigsaw puzzle. "Oh, the depth of the riches both of the wisdom and knowledge of God! How unsearchable are His judgments and His ways past finding out!" (Romans 11:33) Paul, the greatest theologian who ever lived, never figured out systematic theology!

I’m beginning to understand that it’s more important to have all the pieces than to know how they all fit together….

PRAYER by C.S. Lewis

Master, they say that when I seem
To be in speech with you,
Since you make no replies, it’s all a dream
–One talker aping two.

They are half right, but not as they
Imagine; rather, I
Seek in myself the things I meant to say,
And lo! The wells are dry.

Then, seeing me empty, you forsake
The Listener’s role, and through
My dead lips breathe and into utterance wake
The thoughts I never knew.

And thus you neither need reply
Nor can; thus, while we seem
Two talking, thou are One forever, and I
No dreamer, but thy dream

COOKING INDIAN

you’ll never guess what i whipped up for supper….a little batch of palak paneer. No sirree, I didn’t spend all last Saturday in the kitchen for nothing, while Lily was cooking Indian. I was watching.

I put a wee dab of water, 1/2 c maybe, in my big stock pan….brought it to a boil and threw in a chunked up onion. I had about 1/3 of one of those monster zucchinis in the fridge so i chunked it up and threw it in too. I let them boil for a couple of minutes, then stuffed a few big handfuls of spinach in the pot and stirred and stirred. It cooked down pretty quick, and as soon as the zucchini was fairly soft I threw the whole mess in the food processor and pureed it, adding the crucial ingredient, some chicken curry spice mix i bought at the indian grocery store. Then I pureed a tomato, stirred it in, and added about a cup of cottage cheese. That’s it!
I had a bowlful with some plain yogurt on the side. Yogurt tames down the fire on hot Indian food. I wouldn’t have tried this if anyone was eating but me, but I sure liked it.
it’s hot here. we finally got the mower back from the shop and aaron mowed the front yard. i’m so glad we got it done before the president of the homeowner’s associationreturned from vacation and i got written up. it was bad. (he’s my buddy across the street. I like to give him a hard time.)
looking forward to church tonight. Topic: The (Un)Answered Prayer